A new life.
25 Jun 2010 4 Comments
No matter how much you want it, when you choose to change your life, expect it to be more difficult than you imagine, and expect it to cost a lot more than you want it to. That sounds like advice. I guess it is, but it’s really a revelation. Revelations are funny things, because when you tell someone else a revelation they have an “oh, of course,” moment; but when you are in the midst of the revelation, it’s just hard. At least, it has been for me. So far, I’ve spent at least twice as much money as I wanted….and everything has been hard. Things have just been hard. They’ve been hard because everything I’m doing is new. I don’t know how to get to the CVS from where I am; all of my belongings are in bags or boxes and I haven’t had a cup of my favorite tea in about a week, maybe more. These are small things, I know, but when everything you do in a day, from taking a shower, to scanning a document, to making a cup of tea, is new, and you have to ask someone else, it’s hard. But, so far, a month into my adventure, with everything being hard, and all of the complaints I have running through my mind at any moment, I wouldn’t go back. Not yet. We’ll see what I say about that in a few weeks, or months. In the meantime, this is a beginning. An inelegant beginning to be sure, but a beginning nontheless. Tomorrow I’ll tell you what this is all about. In the meantime, sleep well, and try something hard.
Jun 25, 2010 @ 02:03:21
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Jun 25, 2010 @ 13:19:00
It is hard. Just don’t quit.
Jun 25, 2010 @ 20:03:24
this is well-written. it sounds like the begininng of a book…
Jul 09, 2010 @ 03:27:37
i took the high road with the one who’s muffin was stolen by adam. one without a muffin – could be an indian name
anyway, the point is, it was hard because i did not waltz right in there and give it to him and apologize for the lack of decorum that my dog displayed. i held onto the muffin, to see if he was really deserving of it. maybe i deserved it….but in the end, i didn’t want this stupid rift between the muffinless man and me and my dog. i want adam to visit the office again and i wanted to tell muffinless man that next time, don’t email my boss and complain about my dog. tell me. we can deal. anyway, that was hard, and THANK YOU for sharing yourself. it makes a difference!!